Rembrandt, Jesus Stilling the Storm |
On another level the story raises the question of whether or
not the God who is ostensibly present with us and is moreover all powerful does
indeed care that we are perishing (some of the time or all of the time).
On still another level the story probes the curious
intersection of fear and faith, as in Jesus’ question, “Why are you
afraid? Have you still no faith?”
I want to be honest with you and tell you that I really am
not interested very much in what happened once upon a time to Jesus and his
disciples in a boat in a storm on the Sea of Galilee. It is not that I find it hard to believe—I
really don’t find it hard to believe—or that I find it unimportant. Instead, I find myself quite much interested
in the storms that are going on right now in my world and in my soul. I find myself wondering what is happening and
what God or faith or Jesus has to do with any of it.
You might wonder what storms I’m talking about. I could rapidly come up with a list of a
dozen including
- · the firestorm about immigration at the southern US border
- · the suppression of voting rights in this country
- · the rise of authoritarian governments around the world
- · the deep suspicion of immigrant populations here and abroad
- · the corruption of the leadership of many churches who ignore or dismiss directives of Scripture and Tradition to care for the least powerful and most vulnerable
- · the wanton devastation of the earth’s environment
- · unbridled greed that infects economies the world over
But wait. You don’t
want to hear those things. You’ve come
to church precisely to get away from all that.
Indeed the church is a little barque that you’ve bought your ticket to
board so you can get away to the other side of all that, a place where all is
joy and peace, near to the heart of God, to coin a phrase. Part of your disappointment and dismay is
that this little church-boat that we are in to escape being tossed and blown
about by the cross-currents of politics and economics is itself buffeted about
by the squalls of change.
And where, pray, is Jesus in all this? In the middle of it, of course. But to all intents and purposes, fast asleep,
as if he were a little baby in a manger, sleeping on the hay. Not quite the Lord and Master that we bargained
for or that we need. We seem to be left
bailing water and trying to manage the sails.
Sometimes it seems that the Holy One is either totally absent or present
but powerless to stop it all—to correct the course—to pilot the vessel.
Don’t you ever want to cry out, or don’t you ever hear
yourself exclaiming, “Lord do you not care?
We are perishing! Have you nothing to do but sleep on the job?” If you ever get fed up, frightened, or
worse—hopeless—in the straights you find yourself, then you and I are on the
same page. And that page is right here
in the fourth chapter of Mark’s gospel.
For this crossing of the sea is not an event that happened once upon a
time, but one that keeps happening all the time. That, you might say, is why it is in the
Bible in the first place. Somebody
somewhere recognized it as more than an isolated incident in the life of Jesus
and his disciples, but as a window of insight into the human condition that
just doesn’t go away.
Yet it is not disenchantment or disgust that is the enemy of
faith, it would seem. It is fear. And when I say “enemy,” I really mean a
countervailing force that is destructive.
Everybody is scared. We all are running scared much of the time. Scared we won’t have enough money, or enough
energy or health or beauty or education or whatever it is we think will secure
our lives and guarantee them against unhappiness or loss or even death. Faith and fear don’t do well together because
faith always involves risk and trust and fear is primed to avoid risk and to
distrust. But there are some major
exceptions. Courage is not fearlessness; it is acting bravely in spite of
fear. If fear is great enough, it eats
away at courage until there is no courage.
To put all that in the context of this story of us in the
boat in danger of being swamped and ultimately lost in the storm, the issue is
not whether Jesus or God is asleep while we are busy battling the winds and
waves. The issue is whether we can call
upon our inner strength (another name for the indwelling Christ) to be
courageous and not scared to death. Why
are we afraid—not just afraid a little bit, but afraid enough to overrule our
own courage? That’s a question we have
to live with.
But let’s take this story in another direction. What about the storms going on in our
souls? Sometimes they are and sometime
they aren’t the same or even like the storms in our outward lives. You have your own and you probably know what
they are. Perhaps they have to do with
grief or sorrow over someone or some thing that you’ve lost. Maybe they are tied up with addictive
behavior, whether abusing substances or what feels like lifelong patterns and
behavior that you honestly don’t think you’ll ever be able to break. Or maybe the storm really has to do with
relationships that trouble your life among family or friends or bosses or workmates. You know your storms and your storms know
you.
What storms are going on in your own soul? |
It doesn’t really matter what the internal torment is, the
feeling is the same if God seems to be absent or uncaring or just sleeping
through the whole mess. But perhaps more
on the personal scale than the global one, we tend to blame ourselves for the
storm, imagining that there must have been something we could have done to
prevent it.
- · “I should have seen her one more time.”
- · “I shouldn’t have spoken those angry words.”
- · “If I had it to do all over again, I’d accede to his unreasonable demands and maybe I would forestall a split.”
- · “It’s all my fault.”
We take that even further, imagining that the storm is not
just one that God is sleeping through but that God has sent the storm in
punishment for some flaw that we have—something that makes us particularly
susceptible to divine anger.
And guess what? That
kind of thinking is a thinly masked version of fear. In fact it’s worse than fear, because it is
fear cloaked by shame, a profound sense of inadequacy, even sometimes a sense
of worthlessness to the point of paralyzing depression. And it becomes even worse than all that when
we are so far from any idea of God that we don’t even imagine that there’s a
God whom we’ve made into an enemy. We
might have, in Nietzsche’s phrase, killed God, with no choice remaining but to
be gods ourselves, thus having total responsibility for our own torment.
A pretty bleak place, this.
Now there is no guarantee.
I’d be a fool to say otherwise.
Nothing is guaranteed to still the storm, calm the elements, return
everything to peace and quiet. But there
is a chance that out of the chaos, once we rise to the moment with even an
ounce of courage, that courage is like a spark that catches the stubble around
it. Winds only fan the flame. Take heart!
The odd thing is that neither the outward nor the inner
storms actually go away. But in both,
just that ounce of courage, of trust, is enough to build a nest for peace in
the midst of chaos and calamity.
And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea,
“Peace! Be still.” Then the wind ceased and there was a dead
calm. And he said to them, “Why are you
afraid? Have you still no faith?”
And they were filled with great awe and said to one another,
“Who then is this...?”
A sermon preached on the Fifth Sunday after Pentecost,
2018, Proper 7, Year B
© Frank Gasque Dunn, 2018
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